Thursday, September 25, 2008
i am sad
i am stressed
i am mad
i wanna scream
i wanna rant
i say, for the last time
i'm not being emo
just did some random quiz outta boredom
and i got this:
Sad Reality
Your story is most like Sad Reality. Perhaps you have been hurt by someone close or wish that something recent had not happened. This suggests that you are a rather deeper person and enjoy tings to their fullest, but perhaps expect a lot or too much out of them. You are disapointed when things dont work out, and often you seem to blame then on yourself. But don't feel bad, for you have a gift: the gift of thought. Without this gift, no one in the world would feel happy at anytime, because we would all disreagaurd each other.
hell. how accurate.
yes, i expected too much
or maybe i expected too little
or maybe i had no form of expectation at all
Amy, you're fucking useless
you can't even do simple things properly
why the hell are you so mistake-prone?
why the hell are you so slow?
don't you have any common sense?
or do you not have any brains?
do you screw up cos' you really have no idea what to do? how to do?
or is it just simply cos' you can't be bothered?
yes, i fuckin' can't be bothered.
i fuckin can't be bothered with anything anymore.
it sucks BIG TIME when i've been trying so hard all this while, to make things work
yet here you are, saying that i don't possess the right attitude. that i can't be bothered.
thanks a million.
that remark of you came like a tight slap across my face.
and it struck at my heart, like an arrow
many thoughts are running through my head
i don't need sympathy
no one will even bother to show me any anyway
i just need to make things work
i need to redeem myself
and i have only 16 more days left
to save my ass
and make things work
once and for all
circumstances have forced me to conceal myself behind different masks each and every day
i no longer know what's the difference between laughing and crying
i laugh just to conceal the pain
i cry just to ease the pain
tell me what's real. and what's not.
reality's a blur.
i need to find back the old me.
only heaven knows
it's sad. so sad.
it's a sad sad situation.
and it's getting more and more absurd.
Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars
11:21 PM