Monday, June 16, 2008
if someone were to ask me, "oh so how's life?"
i would answer. Life's a bitch. or rather, school's a bitch. (according to Ket, who BLOGGED in class today.wth.lol)
"So what do you do everyday?"
Ans: I bloody hell write proposals every single day.
yes. I spend every single fuckin waking moment of my life doing proposals, and proposals, and more proposals.
Come on baby, i wanna propose to you. Let's get married.
sorry, i've gone nuts.
i wanna just dig my brains out or smth.
life is all about sch sch and SCHOOL.
what else is there to life u tell me.
e moment i wake up, i get ready n head off to hell.
and when i get home, i'm just stuck in front of the laptop, staring at my never-ending assignments.
I jolly well wanna just bang e table and walk out and SHOUT " I jolly well FUCKIN DON'T GIVE A DAMN" and just quit school or drop out or smth.
but hell. i can't
i'm blabbering rubbish again
i'm in a terrible mess
so what. i'm not anti-social
so what. i'm not your popular kid
so what. i'm not your hot lady
so what. i just enjoy being aloof and cold
so what. i just love sitting all by myself at the back of the class and just watch everyone else enjoy themselves at the front
so what. i don't like you either
so what. i don't give a damn what u think abt me
so what. i enjoy being in a world all by myself
what's e pt of being surrounded by a sea of ppl, when none of them understands u. and you end up feeling even more lonely than when you're all by yourself.
i'm not acting like a spoilt brat
i'm not acting like a bitch (although i can be one hell of a bitch when i want to)
i'm just ranting away
this is the ONLY PLACE where i can come to to rant my bloody frustrations
i can't even express myself properly.omg
maybe my brain totally malfunctioned or smth
i need a break
i wanna get away
but fuck. i have NO MORE HOLIDAYS all the way until April 2009
*applauds
i need a drink
maybe i shld ask Ket n Bern out for a chillout session at some high place nxt Fri nite, when hell's TEMPORARILY ovr
i wanna go hit it out on the dance floor or smth
or drown it all down in alcohol or whatever
no i'm no wild child
neither am i a party animal
even if i am, it's none of anyone's business
my life is my own
and my affairs are my own to handle
and neither was i flirting with him
neither was he with me
we were just bored. that's all.
nth else.
what is school?
a bloody waste of time
end of random ranting session.
back to proposals.
oh marry me.
i'm sick of trying so hard
i'm sick of trying to fit in
i'm sick of smiling
i'm sick of pretending everything's alright
i'm sick of all the shit that i'd done
from now on, i'm not gonna care
it doesn't matter anyway
and damnnit. i'm not being emo.
Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars
11:28 AM