Wednesday, June 4, 2008
gahh..i'm supposed to be doing research now
but i've got NO MOOD
no,not now
whatever,i'll leave it for later
srsly, i just hate school
NO MOOD for school
and the thought of NO MORE HOLS just IRKS me
LIKE MAD
it's BUGGING ME
i'm just stressed out
stressed out over the damn internship stuff
i've been thinking and thinking and thinking AND thinking about it for these few days
and even when I've STOPPED thinking abt it, it just hit me again and in the end, i just end up worrying abt it frm the moment i wake up, till i close my eyes and go to bed,
wait. it even bugs me in my dreams.
gawd. it's bugging my brains.
i just want to get everything ovr and done with
so i don't have to keep worrying..
OMG will i end up with no company?
OMG what if my company rejects me?
OMG what if i end up getting some sucky company?
OMG what if my grpmates are people i can't work with?
OMG what if i go for the study trip and end up getting no industry experience?
OMG what if I regret whatever choice I make?
OMG OMG OMG
so on and so forth
Stop being such a paranoid you idiot.
srsly. i just hate myself for being so paranoid.
but i can't help it.
it's just killing my brains
but on the other hand,
i can't wait for attachment to start
i just wanna get free myself of dumb-ass assignments
i'm sick and tired of attending lessons
and just sitting there
pretending i'm listening, oh i'm how interested, omg please teach me this, i wanna learn more about this.. blah blah blah
i'm sick of putting on that oh-so-fake keen expression
i just wanna get this course OVER AND DONE WITH
what shit have i gotten myself into
srsly
oh whatever. it's a love-hate relationship
okay enough random rantings.
back to RESEARCH
oh go do ur RESEARCH
gawd. srsly.
my life only consists of doing RESEARCH????
how emo.
and it's all ur fault, Elmo.
whatever.
i can't be bothered.
grit ur teeth, and get through it, like you ALWAYS do, and ALWAYS will
whatever will be, will be
I'm just counting down to 9pm
SJ M LIVE on sukira tonight!
gosh.
Thank you God.
You know I needed this consolation.
more than anything.
okay, meanwhile..
it's back to RESEARCH
hello Elmo
Let me see what spring is like on Jupiter and Mars
5:48 PM